‘Ik dans zo snel als ik kan’ / ‘I’ll dance as fast as I can’ (2020/2021)

‘I’ll dance as fast as I can’ – LR On Demand (band) is a collaboration between Lisette Ros, Gabriel Rolt and Bas Geerts. Rolt and Geerts will be providing an improvised audio-session (ca. 30 min) of guitars and drums, which will form the sound field of Ros’ performance. Visually the trio will be set in a triangular shape, with at least 2 meters distance from each other. Ros, the ‘front woman’, will try to dance as fast as she can in nudity on extremely slippery red liquid. There will be no internal interaction between the performers.


Dancing in isolation: participate or perish. ‘It’s the survival of the fittest in which everyone only pursues their self-interest.’ (Marian Donner: Zelfverwoestingsboek, 2019).

I am dancing as fast as I can to embody the utter exhaustion that stems from the paradoxical nature of the duality between self-interest and self-destruction. The dancing body can’t be restrained, it doesn’t have a fixed shape or core, instead it’s bouncing up and down, bleeding. Falling and rising. Just trying to dance.

I am a force to be reckoned with: challenging my own vulnerability, teasing with destruction and dancing as fast as I can. Reclaiming my body, my flesh, my blood and the freedom of movement, because my blood is bleeding for someone else. But it doesn’t matter: I’ll try again, I’ll fail again. I’ll fail better than I did before…

*It stands. What? (The body) Yes. Say it stands. Had to up in the end and stand. Say bones. No bones but say bones. Say ground. No ground but say ground. So as to say pain. No mind and pain? Say yes that the bones may pain till no choice but stand. Somehow up and stand. Or better worse remains. Say remains of mind where none to permit of pain. Pain of bones till no choice but up and stand. Somehow up. Somehow stand. Remains of mind where none for the sake of pain. Here of bones. Other examples if needs must. Of pain. Relief from. Change of.

First the bones. On back to them. Preying since first said on foresaid remains. The ground. The pain. No bones. No ground. No pain. Why up unknown. At all costs unknown. If ever down. No choice but up if ever down. Or never down. Forever kneeling. Better forever kneeling. Better worse forever kneeling. Say from now forever kneeling. So far from now forever kneeling. So far.

* Samuel Beckett: Worstward Ho!, 1983.